i am so confused

just when i thought things were looking real bad...something unexpected happens (something that seems too good to be true) and things start to look up again...i really am not enjoying this emotinal roller-coaster that i have been on lately, but i guess that emotion (good or bad) is better than none at all. i'll know more about this opportunity later this week.

what the f%$#

The past couple of months have been a waiting period between one transition in my life, to the next. Today we were faced with an awesome opportunity and almost simultaneously it was taken away...not only was it taken away, but we are actually skrewed because of this non-opportunity. I don't know what to do. I feel lost and helpless. This day has really sucked--but after sitting here feeling sorry for myself (and for my wife) i have realized that i am not the main character in this story. Maybe later i'll be able to sit back and see how selfish i have become with my life and my problems...maybe i'll be able to realize (cliche' and all) that it's not about me. I am ashamed for being so selfish.

My apologies

I realized today why i read blogs...to stay in touch with people, to see what is going on in their lives...i also realized that i have not been fair in doing this because i have not let others see what is going on in my life, and for that--i am sorry.

2nd place

i was at work today from 12-9:15 just waiting to get home and see illinois beat north carolina, but contrary to what i was hoping for we ended up getting second...which isn't all that bad, but it's not the end that i wanted to see.

the second place finish makes two of my favorite teams in a row that have made it down to the end of the season and choked (go cardinals).

Thursdays

Thursdays are beginning to become my favorite day of the week. I work until 5 and then at 7 we have small group, and then at 11 i have poker night. All of my possible needs are met in the same day...my physical, emotional, social, spiritual, intellectual and not to mention my gambling needs. I love it--i might be happier if i would have done better in poker however.

Practice

I know that nobody read's my blog or even has the sight to it...i don't even know the sight, but i am writing this for practice for when i start to blog for "real." since i don't have or need an audience this is going to be something i do when i am bored, not something i do to get people's reactions to interesting things that i think or read (since i am not really good at either of those things)...so if you stumble across my blog accidentally and you want to read more--don't tell me, because i don't care.

This is my first time...if you know what i mean

Well here i go...about to embark in a blogging adventure. I have been told that i should blog--i don't really know why other people would want to know or read my thoughts, but they are about to find out how crazy i really am. If somehow you are reading this and have no clue who i am, i am sorry that i had to put you through this.

Today was the second day of my internship at Community Christian Church in Naperville, IL. So far things are going well. I really appreciate CCC's philosophy of ministry. I hope that this week/two days will be an indicator of the rest of the semester. That's all for now.