It's been a good year

This past year has been one of confusion and frustration...with crying and laughter...it has been one that at times the future seemed so bright--but also at times it seemed so dark. But despite all of the ups and downs, this past year has been the best year of my life...and this Saturday my wife and I will be celebrating our first year of marriage. I love you Courtney. Thank you for giving me the best year of marriage that I could have hoped for.

UPDATE

its been a while since i have written, so this is an update on my life. courtney and i have been renting a house in mt vernon for the past few months...this fall she will be attending siuc to pursue a master's degree in couseling. i am currrently working as the associate minister at a church in the area. i may also attend school in the fall, but it would be to get my teacher certification. other than that we have just been hangin out. we finally got the internet last week so i might start blogging again. i guess we'll see. hasta

WEEZER

Currently i am working as the asst. manager at a music store in the wonderful times square mall of mt. vernon...one of the perks of working in a music store is getting a hold of music before the masses...weezer comes out with a new cd on tuesday and i got a hold of one early, and its everything thing that i thought that it could be.

So il

looks like courtney and i will officially be staying in so. IL for a little while, she finally got accepted into the graduate program at SIUC. On another note, in case you (if anybody actually reads this) notice, this is two blogs in the same day...that is unheard of for me, the only way that happens is when I go work and vomit in the trash-can...i think i'm sick

i am an idiot

i did the stupidest thing last week...i ordered some books off of amazon, something i haven't done in a year. anyway, i was so excited about getting my books that i did not realize that the shipping address was wrong. i accidentaly had the books shipped to LCC. i emailed amazon a couple of hours later and they immediately emailed me back and said "you're screwed." luckily i still know some people in lincoln who are actually responsible (anthony) and can be counted on. so i received my books this week and i am excited. thank you anthony for allowing me to do stupid things.

i am so confused

just when i thought things were looking real bad...something unexpected happens (something that seems too good to be true) and things start to look up again...i really am not enjoying this emotinal roller-coaster that i have been on lately, but i guess that emotion (good or bad) is better than none at all. i'll know more about this opportunity later this week.

what the f%$#

The past couple of months have been a waiting period between one transition in my life, to the next. Today we were faced with an awesome opportunity and almost simultaneously it was taken away...not only was it taken away, but we are actually skrewed because of this non-opportunity. I don't know what to do. I feel lost and helpless. This day has really sucked--but after sitting here feeling sorry for myself (and for my wife) i have realized that i am not the main character in this story. Maybe later i'll be able to sit back and see how selfish i have become with my life and my problems...maybe i'll be able to realize (cliche' and all) that it's not about me. I am ashamed for being so selfish.